Cheating

Well, it happened. I had an unplanned cheat. I went to my Uncle’s 60th, I took the toppings off the pizza crust and piled my plate with salad. But then the wine… oh, the wine, oh the calories. OH THE HANGOVER. I never felt so terrible as I did waking up on Saturday. I knew I was a bit drunk, but I’ve been worse, so I was not expecting the Hangover from Hell. I even had to leave work early. But by the evening, I was better. I still ate Keto despite my carbic oversight the night before. And most importantly, I Did Not Beat Myself Up About It.

Sunday I had my awesome British Tea Party themed Bridal Shower, thrown by my bestest, awesomest friend Lindsey. Seriously, she NEEDS to be a party planner. Everyone raved about how fun and clever it was. She is an absolute star! I had a phenomenal day.

Crazy Hats

Crazy Hats: Aunt, Mom, Me, Aunt, Aunt

 

My old boss, who is DARLING, drove all the way to Detroit to a Scottish bakery to buy cakes: she didn’t know I was low-carbing, bless her. Not to mention it was a tea party which meant biscuits and scones. So for my special day, I ate carbs! Lots.
I did make some awesome Keto Cheesecake Cupcakes

I did make some awesome Keto Cheesecake Cupcakes

So did my mom. We were so sleep by the time we got home, we went for naps. I woke up STARVING. Absolutely STARVING which is so rare for me. My mom got us McDonalds to end our Cheat Day. I didn’t count calories all weekend. I felt bloated and sleepy. I didn’t exercise.

I woke up this morning fully expecting the backlash on the scale. I was prepared and OKAY with it. It’s not that I want to be gaining weight or become ‘okay’ with cheat days, I just want to give myself a break every now and then. Plus the wins and losses, the ups and downs, are what the journey is about. It’s about being okay with making mistakes or slipping up for a day or a week, and then Getting Right Back On It. Having the strength to not say, “Well, I’ve already fucked up this weekend, might as well just give up” is important to my mindset; because that’s what I would say back in the day.

Anyway, the scale? 2 Pounds. I “gained” two pounds. (I don’t start calling it a gain until it’s 5 pounds, 2+ days in a row). So colour me Amazed. It’s nice to know for September, when/if I decide to go crazy when Matthew’s here, which I probably will. But as long as I stay down until my Wedding, what happens a week after that I won’t stress about.

To jump back into Ketosis, I’ve decided on a Cream Cheese Fat Fast. Weirdly enough, cream cheese has been the most delicious and easiest thing for me to eat these past few weeks. So either 8oz a day, or a little less if I want to throw in some bacon or a Fat Bomb. I will try to keep my calories below 1000 but I plan on being more strict about the 90% Fat ratio, which I wasn’t strict about last time. I might do 2 or 3 days, haven’t decided.

I’m most excited to having energy again. I’m heading out to do some Fasted Cardio for the first time in almost a week! Then I’ll go back later tonight for some weights. I’ve done a complete 180 from earlier this month: I used to HATE cardio, and obsess over weights. In the past few weeks, I’ve focused on cardio, and slacked on weights. Bah! Stupid self.

“I may not be there yet,

but I’m closer than I was yesterday.”

 

In wedding news, ONE MONTH until I get to be with Matt again. We’ll have been apart for seven months. And it will be the longest we ever have to go again without being together. I will have to say goodbye one more time, but it won’t be for long.

I sent out the invites, had my bridal shower, got hotels sorted, most important DisneyMoon stuff organised, dress going in for alterations… It’s just bits and bobs now towards the end. Although I do need to make a new list: one that points out the Little Stuff I keep forgetting to remember…

 

Right. I’m off. I shall report back with how the Fat Fast went. Hopefully smoother than last time…… Hah. GOOD LUCK to you as well! Speak soon.

 

ForHealthxx

Keto On

It’s been a weird week. I’ve been obsessed with my stall (what’s new?). I’ve been panicking about my non-stop period. I barely kept up with my Fasted Cardio because I was working long shifts that were fucking with my out-of-alignment back, or so they excuses go. I still did cardio, but I also haven’t lifted in weeks. 

However, Friday I found myself doing an accidental Intermittent Fast. I was up until 4am Thursday night/Friday morning, feeling incredibly productive and not tired. Then had to work at 9am. I woke up angry, tired, stressed, pained, everything and went to work in the worst mood. It was my last shift of the week and I was hating my job and myself. I didn’t have time for coffee or breakfast. I hadn’t eaten since 12am. I worked and worked some more. By the time I got to noon I thought, “Hey, why don’t I make the best of an annoying situation?” I’ll fast until my lunch break at 3pm. 3pm hit and I thought, you know what? I’m out at 5:30 I might as well wait until I can have a big proper dinner. I wasn’t hungry. I was still annoyed and tired, but I only wanted coffee (which I never got). I drank water all day. 

I got home and made a massive dinner: a bed of spinach topped with a drizzle of asiago peppercorn sauce; placed TWO burger patties smothered in melted cheddar on top, with a small orange sweet pepper (carby but only small!). Then a drizzle of sriracha with mayo to dip. I typed it all on MyFitnessPal. That one meal was 1,100 calories! And I ate every last bit. If you’ve been reading, you know I’ve been having problems(?) with my appetite, so I very excited to be able to eat all of it in one sitting. I’d have to say that has been the biggest benefit of IF for me.

Because I had barely slept the night before, I was sitting on the couch after eating and taking my supplements, watching Extreme Weight Loss (nicely inspiring) and could barely keep my eyes open. I took a time-release Melatonin because I didn’t work the next day and wanted a DEEP sleep (I dabble in lucid dreaming). I went to bed at 8pm and didn’t wake up until 7am. So Friday, I did a 23/1 Intermittent Fast.   

Saturday was a normal day except my calories were low. I also realised I’ve not been eating my vegetables like I used to. Because of my difficulties eating, I’d never have ‘sides’, so no broccoli or cauliflower. Even my spinach consumption has dropped, although luckily not diminished. So now when I cook I made a conscious effort to eat some broccoli first. Cruciferous vegetables are also excellent at helping metabolise oestrogen, so hopefully it’ll help regulate me again.

I was babysitting my niece Saturday night so we played Wii and dolls and I crashed on the couch. Woke up to coffee and hung out with my sister for a while. Her house wasn’t full of much Keto-friendly stuff (without effort) so I told her I was doing an IF day. I went shopping and bought some clothes for my bridal shower on Sunday. Got home and didn’t eat until 5pm. So I fasted from 10pm Saturday to 5pm Sunday (19 hours). I didn’t track my calories and just ate a typical Keto dinner. I snacked on cream cheese and Babybel. I stopped eating around 10pm (5 hour feed). 

Monday morning (today), I weighed myself. I dropped 3 pounds after 2 days of IF. I think I’ll alternate them or just do them on days where it’s easy. I don’t need to plan in advance, just wake up and see how I feel. Example: This morning, I felt like breakfast. It’s good to see my body really respond to IF. Not just in terms of losing weight, but also finally being able to pound back a high calorie meal. I think that’s the best part of IF, is I don’t have to count calories because I know it’ll be difficult for me to go over my limit in a short amount of time.

I read last night, that from an evolutionary standpoint, women restricting calories but their body in a ‘DON’T REPRODUCE’ response. So I’m wondering if this is why my low calorie on top of a low carb diet has made my body just continuously menstruate? I’ve decided to just stay calm and keep going. I’m seeing my doctor August 15th and if nothings stopped maybe she can change my birth control. And if it comes to the worse, I’ll just reintroduce carbs at the end of August and bite the weight-gain bullet. I’d rather be 5 pounds heavier with no period for 2 week honeymoon. I can go back to Keto afterwards. But in all my research, most girls say it takes the body 1-3 months to balance its hormones. Waiting is my best option for now! Argh, fingers crossed. 

 

I’ll just revel in finally losing again. 

26 pounds in total so far – lost and KEPT off. I only vary by a pound. Maintenance is  super important to weight loss. Who wants to put it all back on after all that work? Which is what I’ve ALWAYS DONE. Not this time. Slow or fast, as long as it’s steady. 

ForHealthxx