Whoosh

Eating more calories seemed to have helped. Dropped 3 more pounds. 31 pounds down!

Doctor is super proud and told me to keep doing what I’m doing. ūüôā /chuffed.

I’m eating more calories, but I’ve also dangerously upped my carb intake to between 30-50g on some days. Slowly weaning back on to them. I couldn’t be arsed with paleo/primal, mainly because I don’t crave fruit or tubers, but it’s good to know it’s an option if I get bored. So I’m just going to Keto and maybe go a bit crazier on my sauces, allow more tomato based foods when I fancy them, or indulge in low carb pita breads for pizzas. I’ve mainly just been eating loads of veggies without care.

I tried, for about 30 minutes, to cut back on cheese but no meal would come to me. So I made low-carb pita pizza. Opposite spectrums… I might try again after we do a grocery shop and have more options.

In the end, Keto or not, as long as I’m making the right choices, I’m happy. I can’t imagine eating a bowl of pasta, with a side of garlic bread, and cake to finish: I’d feel cheated out of nutrients – where’s my heaping serving of vegetables?! [Similar to my anger towards iceberg lettuce.]¬†I won’t be counting carbs or calories during the 2 week weddingmoon. I will, through habit and preference, avoid refined carbs in my food choices, but I’m okay with going off Keto for a bit. Exercise/cardio levels will increase by 1000% anyway.

 

In more somber news, my little sister was just admitted to the ICU for diabetic ketoacidosis. She’s 21 and been Type 1 since she was 4? 6? Young. Since her teenage years, she’s been living in this “I’m the victim” mentality and trying to get her to take care of herself has been next to impossible. She also had Graves’ disease and just stubbornly hates taking a pill everyday so… she doesn’t. *I* take 14 pills a day, everyday and I don’t even have to, but that’s where her “Victim” identity comes in.

Anyway. I’ve been so angry at her for the past month because she was doing better – taking her medication, testing her blood sugar, eating healthy, cutting back on diet pop – and then she got addicted to Black Ops. My mom and I have had to sit by and suffer (I’ve lost a lot of sleep thanks to her screaming obscenities at 12 year old boys), and worry about her health. She stays up for nearly days on end, with almost no sleep. She sliced the tip of her fucking finger off at work and still didn’t see the stress she was putting on her body. I don’t even want to talk about what she’s been eating and drinking…

Well, today it finally sent out an SOS. Her pump stopped working and we don’t know for how long, only that she didn’t fix it when she fucking said she did. Mom took her to the ER tonight while I was at work and they are slowly trying to stabilise her labs.

I’m so angry. Angry because she’s so fucking stupid and careless. Angry because I’m scared. Angry because I try to no avail. Angry because in the end, it’s up to her. I can only hope that this is one Giant Fucking Wake Up Call to her. Get out of the “I’m Invincible” mindset and start TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF before it’s too late. And no, it’s not just because you’re diabetic, or have Graves, and ‘boo hoo it’s so unfair on me’ — EVERY ONE needs to CARE about what shit they put in their body! I finally started caring. finally stopped binge drinking and eating unhealthfully. I do it because I’M HUMAN, not immortal, and everyone, disease or not, needs to be mindful of what they do to their bodies. Take action before it’s too late…

Ugh.

Bed time. I’m sure my stress levels aren’t helping with my stalled weight loss…

 

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Forgive Me, Body, For I Have Sinned

It’s been five days since my last confession. And this one is a doozy.

It’s been a rough week. The closer I get to seeing my fianc√©, the harder it gets being away from him. You’d think I’d be mostly giddy that we only have just over 3 weeks to go, but instead I find myself getting depressed and frustrated.

I’m finishing up the last details for the wedding, stressing constantly about expenses. I went and got my dress fitted – [which cost $80! The dress cost $99, what the hell!] – and found out I lost another Inch. That’s 4 inches total, gone in 2 months. I should be happy! Instead I’m annoyed. I keep bouncing between the same 3 pounds. Been stalled around here for over two weeks and I’m going manic, just to add to wedding stress. I also got the smallest paycheck EVER yesterday and that depressed the shit out of me.

I’ve been realising that I need to force myself to get at least 1400 calories each day. I average maybe 1000 and have been like that for a month. I eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full. That’s it. And that’s good! Or least miles from where I’ve been before. But it’s been suggested that at least adding 3 “high” calorie days to my week could help my stall. I get my vitamins and nutrients, not a doubt. I hit my macros. I just need to eat more.

So that’s where it started. I abandoned my Fat Fast ideas because caloric intake is NEVER my problem, and nor is my fat intake. I’ll still sit and eat cream cheese (because I prefer to have more fat than protein each day), but I don’t need ONLY cream cheese. I realised that when I go out to eat at a restaurant, I eat more than I do when I eat at home. Going out to eat is newly appealing to me for this reason.

Friday. Friday is where it went all wrong. It started well enough: I went to hang out with a good friend. I ate a tiny bit, but kept my carbs super low because I knew I was going to drink. I got there and had half a bottle of wine. His boyfriend brought us Subway and I hoovered my spinach salad (so good!) and that was it. Having a good time, feeling proud of my control, until — I had one (strong) hit of weed. That’s all I had because I do it so incredibly rarely (a few times a year) that I didn’t want to lose control.

Welp. I did. Self-control blown straight out the window. It started with an innocent handful of sweet & salty kettle chips. Then another. Then I ate half a bag of white cheddar popcorn. Because I get high so rarely, I never learned how to control the fucking munchies.

Not so bad right? I mean, all in all, I could at least use the calories and it was probably less carbs than I ate at my bridal shower a week ago…

Yeah. Then I drove home and saw Taco Bell. “I need the calories,” I thought. Crunchwrap, soft taco, chips and cheese. BUT DON’T WORRY – I made sure I ordered Diet Pepsi! It was delicious, but I have been wracked with guilt for 24 hours now. I felt like hell waking up. I’ve been bloated all day. I’m just the biggest Saddo ever!! I’ve been irritable and anxious and I know some of that is psychological. I gained 2 pounds – guess that’s my standard gain the first day after carbs.

I’ve eaten very well today but still came in low on calories (1000). I’m already at 23g of carbs for the day and I just had my big dinner so I don’t think I’ll be able to choke down any more food tonight. I’m going out to eat tomorrow with my friend (who’s trying to eat healthier as well, yay) so I hope I can hit 1400.

I have my next doctors appointment on Thursday. If I can lose 4 pounds by then I’ll be okay. I need to talk to her about my Period That Never Ends. I plan on researching about Paleo Primal¬†this week. If doctor doesn’t have any fixes or suggestions for it, then I’m going to switch over to Paleo (or Primal which is paleo with cheese). I heard a lot of girls do it to avoid exactly what I’m dealing with. I love Keto and I will happily go back to it after the honeymoon, but I have ABSOLUTELY GOT to sort this bullshit out for at least those 2 weeks. Plus, I already plan on eating some carbs and kind of relaxing on the diet for the honeymoon. We’ll be active enough anyway…

I feel like I need to remind myself of the GOOD things I’ve accomplished. Yesterday, before the CARBOCIDE, I took a photo and was relatively amazed at the lighting – my face looks so svelte:

Difference?

So I was/am feeling good about that picture. But I know it’s smoke and mirrors, but when I put it next to a face shot from April I think, maybe it IS noticeable..

I have lost 28 pounds. That’s good. I’m stuck but I’m NOT 28 pounds heavier, and I’m not gaining.

I lost 4 inches. Although I do think I put an inch back on last night.

I crave healthy food (when I’m not under the influence of anything). I actually find it difficult to think of ‘carb’ meals I want to make at home, simply because I don’t crave them.

When I research Paleo/Primal I’m going to have to be very specific with my meal plan. If I start on August 18th, then 2 weeks to get into the groove and be strict, then 2 weeks to do whatever I like.

Right. I’m still so angry at myself. I’m angry at everything. It’s just been a bad day and I need to just go to bed and start over again tomorrow. I felt SO GOOD on Thursday and in two days, lost all that pride I had in myself… Sigh.

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Cheating

Well, it happened. I had an unplanned cheat. I went to my Uncle’s 60th, I took the toppings off the pizza crust and piled my plate with salad. But then the wine… oh, the wine, oh the calories. OH THE HANGOVER. I never felt so terrible as I did waking up on Saturday. I knew I was a bit drunk, but I’ve been worse, so I was not expecting the Hangover from Hell. I even had to leave work early. But by the evening, I was better. I still ate Keto despite my carbic oversight the night before. And most importantly, I Did Not Beat Myself Up About It.

Sunday I had my awesome British Tea Party themed Bridal Shower, thrown by my bestest, awesomest friend Lindsey. Seriously, she NEEDS to be a party planner. Everyone raved about how fun and clever it was. She is an absolute star! I had a phenomenal day.

Crazy Hats

Crazy Hats: Aunt, Mom, Me, Aunt, Aunt

 

My old boss, who is DARLING, drove all the way to Detroit to a Scottish bakery to buy cakes: she didn’t know I was low-carbing, bless her. Not to mention it was a tea party which meant biscuits and scones. So for my special day, I ate carbs! Lots.
I did make some awesome Keto Cheesecake Cupcakes

I did make some awesome Keto Cheesecake Cupcakes

So did my mom. We were so sleep by the time we got home, we went for naps. I woke up STARVING. Absolutely STARVING which is so rare for me. My mom got us McDonalds to end our Cheat Day. I didn’t count calories all weekend. I felt bloated and sleepy. I didn’t exercise.

I woke up this morning fully expecting the backlash on the scale. I was prepared and OKAY with it. It’s not that I want to be gaining weight or become ‘okay’ with cheat days, I just want to give myself a break every now and then. Plus the wins and losses, the ups and downs, are what the journey is about. It’s about being okay with making mistakes or slipping up for a day or a week, and then Getting Right Back On It. Having the strength to not say, “Well, I’ve already fucked up this weekend, might as well just give up” is important to my mindset; because that’s what I would say back in the day.

Anyway, the scale? 2 Pounds. I “gained” two pounds. (I don’t start calling it a gain until it’s 5 pounds, 2+ days in a row). So colour me Amazed. It’s nice to know for September, when/if I decide to go crazy when Matthew’s here, which I probably will. But as long as I stay down until my Wedding, what happens a week after that I won’t stress about.

To jump back into Ketosis, I’ve decided on a Cream Cheese Fat Fast. Weirdly enough, cream cheese has been the most delicious and easiest thing for me to eat these past few weeks. So either 8oz a day, or a little less if I want to throw in some bacon or a Fat Bomb. I will try to keep my calories below 1000 but I plan on being more strict about the 90% Fat ratio, which I wasn’t strict about last time. I might do 2 or 3 days, haven’t decided.

I’m most excited to having energy again. I’m heading out to do some Fasted Cardio for the first time in almost a week! Then I’ll go back later tonight for some weights. I’ve done a complete 180 from earlier this month: I used to HATE cardio, and obsess over weights. In the past few weeks, I’ve focused on cardio, and slacked on weights. Bah! Stupid self.

“I may not be there yet,

but I’m closer than I was yesterday.”

 

In wedding news, ONE MONTH until I get to be with Matt again. We’ll have been apart for seven months. And it will be the longest we ever have to go again without being together. I will have to say goodbye one more time, but it won’t be for long.

I sent out the invites, had my bridal shower, got hotels sorted, most important DisneyMoon stuff organised, dress going in for alterations… It’s just bits and bobs now towards the end. Although I do need to make a new list: one that points out the Little Stuff I keep forgetting to remember…

 

Right. I’m off. I shall report back with how the Fat Fast went. Hopefully smoother than last time…… Hah. GOOD LUCK to you as well! Speak soon.

 

ForHealthxx

Keto On

It’s been a weird week. I’ve been obsessed with my stall (what’s new?). I’ve been panicking about my non-stop period. I barely kept up with my Fasted Cardio because I was working long shifts that were fucking with my out-of-alignment back, or so they excuses go. I still did cardio, but I also haven’t lifted in weeks.¬†

However, Friday I found myself doing an accidental Intermittent Fast. I was up until 4am Thursday night/Friday morning, feeling incredibly productive and not tired. Then had to work at 9am. I woke up angry, tired, stressed, pained, everything and went to work in the worst mood. It was my last shift of the week and I was hating my job and myself. I didn’t have time for coffee or breakfast. I hadn’t eaten since 12am. I worked and worked some more. By the time I got to noon I thought, “Hey, why don’t I make the best of an annoying situation?” I’ll fast until my lunch break at 3pm. 3pm hit and I thought, you know what? I’m out at 5:30 I might as well wait until I can have a big proper dinner. I wasn’t hungry. I was still annoyed and tired, but I only wanted coffee (which I never got). I drank water all day.¬†

I got home and made a massive dinner: a bed of spinach topped with a drizzle of asiago peppercorn sauce; placed TWO burger patties smothered in melted cheddar on top, with a small orange sweet pepper (carby but only small!). Then a drizzle of sriracha with mayo to dip. I typed it all on MyFitnessPal. That one meal was 1,100 calories! And I ate every last bit. If you’ve been reading, you know I’ve been having problems(?) with my appetite, so I very excited to be able to eat all of it in one sitting. I’d have to say that has been the biggest benefit of IF for me.

Because I had barely slept the night before, I was sitting on the couch after eating and taking my supplements, watching Extreme Weight Loss (nicely inspiring) and could barely keep my eyes open. I took a time-release Melatonin because I didn’t work the next day and wanted a DEEP sleep (I dabble in lucid dreaming). I went to bed at 8pm and didn’t wake up until 7am. So Friday, I did a 23/1 Intermittent Fast. ¬†¬†

Saturday was a normal day except my calories were low. I also realised I’ve not been eating my vegetables like I used to. Because of my difficulties eating, I’d never have ‘sides’, so no broccoli or cauliflower. Even my spinach consumption has dropped, although luckily not diminished. So now when I cook I made a conscious effort to eat some broccoli first. Cruciferous vegetables are also excellent at helping metabolise oestrogen, so hopefully it’ll help regulate me again.

I was babysitting my niece Saturday night so we played Wii and dolls and I crashed on the couch. Woke up to coffee and hung out with my sister for a while. Her house wasn’t full of much Keto-friendly stuff (without effort) so I told her I was doing an IF day. I went shopping and bought some clothes for my bridal shower on Sunday. Got home and didn’t eat until 5pm. So I fasted from 10pm Saturday to 5pm Sunday (19 hours). I didn’t track my calories and just ate a typical Keto dinner. I snacked on cream cheese and Babybel. I stopped eating around 10pm (5 hour feed).¬†

Monday morning (today), I weighed myself. I dropped 3 pounds after 2 days of IF. I think I’ll alternate them or just do them on days where it’s easy. I don’t need to plan in advance, just wake up and see how I feel. Example: This morning, I felt like breakfast. It’s good to see my body really respond to IF. Not just in terms of losing weight, but also finally being able to pound back a high calorie meal. I think that’s the best part of IF, is I don’t have to count calories because I know it’ll be difficult for me to go over my limit in a short amount of time.

I read last night, that from an evolutionary standpoint, women restricting calories but their body in a ‘DON’T REPRODUCE’ response. So I’m wondering if this is why my low calorie on top of a low carb diet has made my body just continuously menstruate? I’ve decided to just stay calm and keep going. I’m seeing my doctor August 15th and if nothings stopped maybe she can change my birth control. And if it comes to the worse, I’ll just reintroduce carbs at the end of August and bite the weight-gain bullet. I’d rather be 5 pounds heavier with no period for 2 week honeymoon. I can go back to Keto afterwards. But in all my research, most girls say it takes the body 1-3 months to balance its hormones. Waiting is my best option for now! Argh, fingers crossed.¬†

 

I’ll just revel in finally losing again.¬†

26 pounds in total so far – lost and KEPT off. I only vary by a pound. Maintenance is ¬†super important to weight loss. Who wants to put it all back on after all that work? Which is what I’ve ALWAYS DONE. Not this time. Slow or fast, as long as it’s steady.¬†

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The Carb-Up

For various reasons, I decided to have a carb meal. As I’ve written before my weight loss has slowed down and I just wanted to play with different stall-burst ideas.

Now, if you don’t care to receive too much information involving the female body, I urge you to cease reading this paragraph: Basically, since I started Keto just over one month ago, my shark week has turned into shark month. And this is after 4 years of virtually no periods (thanks to my birth control). I’ve been reading obsessively on /r/xxketo and many girls report the same problems, because quite obviously, we are messing with our hormones. Not limited to reduced insulin, we are also burning fat stores constantly in Ketosis (it’s our fuel!) and fat stores oestrogen. Thus, the burning releases extra oestrogen into the body.

Anyway. So I’ve been stressed with money, my family is crazy, the wedding/honeymoon, so I broke down and grabbed a McDonalds. It was only after very careful calculation (on their meal builder website) to find the best option – I still wanted high calories, lots of protein and fat as I don’t have a sweet tooth. So I got a Daily Double meal and ate 74g in one sitting. It was delicious. My stomach was okay. I did feel warmer – almost as if I could feel my stomach digesting it? Could be in my head. I got hungry. I ate that at 3:00pm; I can usually go hours and hours without food, but got hungry rather quickly and that annoyed me. I’ve had a dull headache since about 5pm yesterday.

Finished work at 10pm and still hadn’t had any adverse reactions, other than hunger. Still tested positive for ketones in urine, but I know that’s not always the most accurate reading at this stage so I didn’t think anything of it. I went to the gym hungry, attempting some form of Fasted Cardio for the day. Spent an hour doing the treadmill, elliptical, and stationary bike. I was feeling okay, but not experiencing the awesome energy levels Fasted Cardio did for me before.¬†

As soon as I stopped and got home, I crashed. I felt ill. My hunger was so bad it made me sick to my stomach. I got a protein shake in me quickly and ended my day at 90g of net carbs. I went to bed feeling like crap.

I woke up feeling like crap. My body feels stressed (had to take a muscle relaxer first thing this morning). I still have a dull headache.

Still tested positive for urine ketones, but my blood ketones were untraceable so that answers that question:

I’ve successfully kicked myself out of Ketosis.¬†

Two days ago I was reading at least 1.0 for blood ketones. (0.8 and below means your body is running on sugar/carbs). This morning, I lost half a pound (which I never count but am only noting due to the nature of yesterday). I ate¬†1,190 calories, which is pretty standard. I’ve actually cut my daily goal down to 1,250. It’s low but I ¬†only ever manage that many anyway so it doesn’t phase me.¬†

So back on to Keto after that “carb up’! I hope the jolt to my system will kick me back into high gear – sometimes keeping your body guessing is what helps the weight loss. If not, then oh well, I tired. And as always, KEEP UP THE BLOODY CARDIO & WEIGHTS. The all-caps yelling is at myself.¬†

 

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Fasted Cardio

Had my first Fasted Cardio experience and I am exhilarated. Went to the gym around 11:45 am so I had fasted for about 12 hours.

Actually, I forgot when I woke up at 9 and ate a Babybel (70 cals). I’m such a breakfast person. But then only had water and coffee. I took my sublingual B12 as well.

My goal was to maintain a heart-rate between 137-165 on the treadmill. Fat-burning area, but still only moderate. When doing FC, you don’t necessarily want to do high intensity. Especially me, who used to have passing out episodes (over 5 years ago) so I’m still conditioned to always be weary of blood sugars n that.

I had the best cardio session of my summer! I went for 40 minutes, with a 5 minute warm up and 5 minute cool down. Honestly, I usually get bored after 20 minutes of cardio. Sure, I’m sweating, feeling good, but around 15 minutes I start looking over to the weights area or wondering what time it is. Very bad habit I need to break is cutting my cardio. So the fact that I did 50 minutes on the treadmill is awesome for me.

Did a usual warm up, no incline but moderate pace. After 5 minutes, I upped my incline and kept it at a 5 for 25 minutes. My heart rate for most that time was around 150. I’d vary my pace back and forth, but my heart rate went no lower than 140. Then my energy levels just went mental and as I came down to the last 15 minutes, I surged with a speed walk (I don’t jog… yet) on an 8 incline. [I love incline. Reminds me so much of walking through Edinburgh :(]. That took me right to my 5 minute cool down. In that time, I heart rate went up to 175 (endurance level) and I was fine with it. In fact, when I usually do cardio, my heart rate is mostly commonly between 165-180. I felt awesome. I could’ve kept going but didn’t want to push too hard, so I headed home ready for lunch!

According to the treadmill I burned 306 calories. So 236 (damn babybel) of fat stores, supposedly! I’m happy with that.

It felt good to eat 780 super healthy calories in one sitting without feeling ill. I mixed my protein shake (whey and casein) with almond milk. Grilled a burger patty, melted mozzarella on it, put it on a bed of spinach, topped with a whole avocado, and a bit of mayonnaise. Salt and pepper. Macros are currently near perfect (8C,68F,24P) with only 12 net carbs. The casein will probably keep me full through work.

Now I just need to keep my water intake going. Some days I forget and am left trying to drink far too many millilitres in too little time (which as we all know can be dangerous). I have my 700 mL bottle I refill as I go along and I know I should have at least 5 of them each day. I know my coffee and Sparkling Ice counts to water intake as well, but I never include them. I don’t want to get lazy with it. It’s ridiculous how important the RIGHT amount of water is key in health and losing weight. Even when you think you’re drinking enough — YOU’RE PROBABLY NOT.

On my last thought, Mumford & Sons is alarmingly AWESOME to workout to. And this song was the most empowering Cool Down song to ever come on:

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Ruddy Stalls

Right, okay, my bad: I told myself I’d stopped calling it a ‘stall’. I know it’s just that my body is adjusted to Keto now so the initiation weight loss is done and it’s keeping slow and steady until it figures out the next step… I’m still trying to convince myself it’ll be fine.

I know I’m a million times healthier. And while I don’t lose weight, I don’t gain either. I am 22 pounds lighter. I take my vitamins. I don’t eat junk.¬†That’s the stuff to be proud of.¬†

In the next two weeks, I’m going to consider a few different things.

1. Exercise. One thing I know I’ve changed in the past 2 weeks is less gym time (as I’ve bitched about in nearly every post) so I’m kicking that into gear again. Even when I wasn’t losing weight in early June, I was feeling so much better just exercising.

2. Intermittent Fasting. I did it once when I wasn’t on Keto and had good success after 2 weeks (17 pounds down before I stopped). I need to organise a doable schedule with work shifts that don’t interrupt my feeds. Or, do 2 day extreme fasts. Many options.

3. Eat More Calories. I’ve already experimented with this once and very weirdly it worked! I worry so much about over eating these days and I’m not sure why because I¬†physically¬†can’t on keto. I track my food on MFP mainly for my macros. Tonight I told myself, ‘Just eat. Go for it. Try the more calories thing again.’ I ate 3 meals and a snack. (These days I average 1.5 meals and a snack). I just let go! Went crazy. Tracked it: Still 200 calories left for the day (meaning I ate 1200). Right, okay, just as well I stayed under becaaaussee….

4. Carb Meals. I’ve read about this. Once a week you allow yourself ONE Carb MEAL. Not carb day! Just meal. Today I realised I ate more carbs than I should – although I still only ate about 40g; I’m rounding up to leave error for those <1g labels. I still would rather eat more calories than have a carb meal. I just don’t want it to be the gateway carbs. Maybe when I’m 50 pounds lighter and feeling more confident about control.

 

So I have some options. I think this week I’ll do 1 & next week I’ll try 2 with an amended 3. I’m reserving 4 for maybe the end of August if I think I’ll need to ease carbs in for Disneymoon. I have a ton of long late work shifts this week so IF would be tricky but,

It will be easy for working out – my gym is 24/7. I’ll go back to doing weights Mon, Wed, Fri, but not be lazy like before and skip cardio on my inbetween days! I really want to try Fasted Cardio¬†– ¬†Get up at a decent time before work, and walk on the treadmill for 30-60 minutes before I eat. Then after work on Mon, Wed, Fri nights I can do my weights once I’ve had a snack (another reason why IF would be tricky this week). The hard part will be getting my ass out of bed in the morning/before work. I am not a… Get Out of Bed Person. But I need routine more than anything these days.¬†

I really want to do IF! I’ll have to wait until Thurs/Fri to see what my work schedule is like and plan a decent “Feed Time’ around it. The hardest part would be picking a window where I can eat (i.e. not at work with only a 15-30 minute break to eat!) but also allows me energy for lifting. I have read that people do allow themselves a protein shake if they need it during the Fast Time. I also, adding in an amended 3, want to make sure that I eat 1,200 in that feed time.

As you can see, a lot to sort out. This week is not ideal for an extended IF. I may possibly do a 2 day extreme IF: Fast 23 hours, Eat 1000+ keto calories in 1 hour.

I definitely need to do a bit more research on Fasted Cardio. I know it’s awesome for fat burning, but I don’t want to destroy my muscles either!

Okay. If I have any hope of doing anything before work tomorrow, I must to bed.

 

ForHealthxx

 

Comfort Food

It’s too fucking hot. I am NOT a heat/humidity person. Scotland was perfect for me. On the very rare days we had sun¬†and¬†warmth (more often than not it was one without the other), I relished it. It was rare and beautiful and made everyone so happy. Whereas here in Michigan, it’s hot ALL THE FUCKING TIME. It is not unique. It is not beautiful. And people moan and complain, and if they’re like me, they’re miserable.

I’m excited to move to Liverpool, as it will be slightly warmer than Edinburgh on average, but still moderate. British weather is my ideal.

Here’s a photo album of a few Keto meals I’ve had these past few weeks. A perk of Keto is rediscovering the chef in me. A long time ago, I considered culinary school, I loved it that much. But moving away, becoming a student, cooking for one all contributed to laziness. Plus, Chef at work mostly cooked for me. Anyway, here’s a nice tour of some of the things this “diet” consists of:

http://imgur.com/a/Gbs6K

Wait, did I just complain about heat and then make CHILLI for dinner? Isn’t that the ultimate winter comfort food? Ah well, it’s bloody good!¬†Here’s a follow up to the last photo in that album: my finished Caveman Chilli Bowl!

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Check Up

Back from my first doctors appointment since I started Keto. She was so excited for my weight loss. I told her it was mostly from my diet. She has heard of it and actually had only good things to say. Her complaint was against Atkins no veggies thing, so as soon as I told her I am addicted to vegetables, both leafy and green, she was chuffed. My blood pressure is beautiful. (A nice change from 5-6 years ago when my anxiety would throw me into hypertension in minutes).

We talked about my supplements. As I’ve mentioned I’m only taking a multi and magnesium citrate. She says to add B12 to that. She also said my potassium levels should be fine (I’m obsessively tracking them); I’ll only need to add a supplement if I start cramping up a lot. I got another month of Adipex. I might be giving most of it to Lindsey. I haven’t taken it in a few days and my appetite has stayed the same. I’ll take it again for a few days. If it starts my weight loss again, I may keep them for myself. But that’s not how Adipex works, so I highly doubt it’ll effect my weight loss any more so than Keto will. But I shall experiment, regardless.

Got some muscle relaxers as well for me poor out-of-alignment back ūüė¶ Standing at work for hours kills me. I miss my old job where at least I got to run around. Hopefully with more strength training and weight loss I can fix my spine along the way. Just need to endure the pain until then.

I scheduled a Lipid Profile! Excited to get my cholesterol, LDL, HDL, and Triglycerides checked! I can add that to my “Progress” charts. Then, when the naysayers shout back with, ‘Oh yeah? How’s your cholesterol?!’ I can finally say with certainty: IT’S GORGEOUS. EAT THAT, LIPID HYPOTHESIS.

On a non-diet related note: I have my first ever brazilian wax scheduled for Friday afternoon. I suspect to spend rest of the day lying spread eagle and popping ibuprofen so as not to irritate my probably already-angry lady area. The last thing I wanted to do was leave my first waxing to just before the wedding. This way I can get in twice before and make sure it’s all lovely and smooth. Shaving is literally the bane of my existence. If this spa does an awesome job, I’ll definitely get a deep tissue; perhaps a facial; at least a mani and pedi! Damn I wish I had more money.

RIGHT. My diet is sorted for now. I’m going to keep calm and not freak out about staying the same weight for a week. I’m probably in¬†Post-Induction Stall Syndrome (PISS): “Water and glycogen find a new balance and this causes a stall or even weight gain, which lasts for a week or two. Relax, PISS is both normal and temporary.” So, aye, as it says… Just RELAX, Janelle! Need to get my cardio ass into GEAR. Sat here complaining about a stall, when I haven’t been to the gym in 5 days. The nerve of me.

Just under 7 weeks. I wonder how much weight I can lose in that time? 20 in 4 so far… Maybe ¬†30? That would get me at my Recorded Adult Lowest! I think that would make me the happiest Bride. Aside, of course, from Husband. But saying “Aye, ah dae” while at my lowest weight after so much hard work would just be phenomenal! And shit, just realised I need a swim suit for our honeymoon. How in the hell do I go about that? If I get it now, it might be too big by September? But if I wait til September, shops might not sell them anymore.

You hear that? That’s the sound of Panicking Bride. I swear, even with my small courthouse wedding, there’s still stress.

I have this top that I wore 2 and a half years ago. It’s a simple shirt but I loved how I looked in it. But maybe it’s because I was at my Current Recorded Lowest Adult Weight? Here’s a photo of that time, and me in that shirt. I don’t know what I was doing at this time to be so tiny (ha! Comparatively) other than dating and having lots of sex. But there it is. (PSA: Guy in photo is Best Gay, Lloyd, not sexual partner).

Lowest recent weight

Lowest Weight, NYE 2011-2012

Anyway, my point is – I have that shirt still. I haven’t tried to wear it in many months. Last time I did, I knew immediately to take it back off. It did not flatter the same. My goal is for it to flatter me again in September. If I don’t hit that goal, I’ll survive and keep trying. But it’s a little something to keep working towards for now.

I’m so chatty today. Off to work I go. As much as I hated not making my own money, I sorely miss being unemployed. Being a stay at home wife (NOT mom — childfree woman here) would be ideal. I could just write my fiction all day… Aaaaaand cue daydream.

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